My Bonnie

No-this post is not about the song. but about my neighbor, my friend, my listener, my motivation, my example and fellow mother who also yells at her kids.
This post is dedicated to my friend Bonnie. Her blog is "The Zoo" just over to your right. Anyway-I moved into this house last June. I had been there 2 days-I met this great spunky lady at church who was super friendly and i loved her jewelry! I talked to Kal about how I met a new friend who liked mm's and diet coke as much as I did. I told him that is why we moved here. He rolled his eyes.
The next day I was trying to unpack and get things put away, when Bonnie came over and offered to take my kids so I could get some stuff done. Now, let me remind you, i am new, she doesn't know me, and yet she offers to take my kids, ALL DAY! I was so thankful. I got a lot of work done that day. That was the begining of a great friendship. Her kids and mine, love to play and we can see each other from our porches. She can call me for anything and i can call her for anything. She brings me treats-just enough to get a taste, not share and not feel to guilty about eating the whole plate. She listens, she worries, she cares. She is one of my Bestest Friends. I love her, I love her kids and i don't ever want her to move. She is one of those kindred friends. You know the kind. Remember Anne of Green Gables? Anne and Diana were Kindred Spirits-thats how Bonnie and I are-Kindred Spirits.
I hope that I am as good as a friend to her as she is to me. Take that back-i must work harder, she does far more for me than i do for her.
So, in a nutshell-she is the best! You should all be jealous that I have a friend like her. If you are lucky enough to have a friend like her-you should call her, right now, and tell her how much you love her.
So, now that i look back-we were supposed to move here for lots of things, but the most important reason, so I could have My Bonnie-my kindred spirit who loves mm's and diet coke as much as I do! Luv Ya Bonn!

My three girls

So-I love my girls. My wonderful dramatic

"My life is so not fair"

"Why do I have it"

three Girls.

Did I mention that I have 3 girls. Three Girls, ThReE girls!!!!!!!!! AAAAHHHHHHHHHAAAHHH!

I love my girls, I really do, there are just some days when I want someone to put me in my room for a timeout. I really think that it is not fair that we had to be banished to our room when we didn't want to. But, now, that we want to, we don't get to. As my girls so eloquently stated earlier today, "my life is so not fair."

I could go on about how my lovely 6 and 8 year old were told to do the dishes, really, just load the dishwasher. Yet, they managed to each get soaking wet and slap each other and blame it on the other.

Or, I could tell you how my 3 year old told hubby "no, i don't want to" when he asked her to put her shoes away. Yes, she is 3, and no, I didn't teach her do that, and yes, she did get in trouble,great BIG trouble.

As well as her sisters, they all got in trouble, 2 minutes before they were supposed to go bed. How hard would it be for my 3 little drama queens to just be cute and quiet ,like, when they are sleeping.

This pic looks like a bad drivers license picture.
Also, one of the many reasons my kids
CAN'T touch my camera!

Thanks Thanks Thanks

See-I knew that all of you would help me feel better. You all made me cry! Thanks so much for all the love that you have sent my way. I am truly blessed to have such great friends! Thanks again.
Good news! I took myself off one of the meds that really helped me out with the pain because of side effects. I forgot how much this hurts wihout it. The Dr. put me back on it and gave me something else for the side effects. Yea!!! He also put me on something for my thyroid. Apparently, my thyroid is underacting. So, the meds will get rid of the swelling and being so tired. That will also help with the numbness. So, that will solve most problems. Yes! He put me on some med call ed ur a spaz- yes, that is really what it is called. For those of you who know me, that is a perfect med. Kal laughed so hard he cried. He also asked if I could be on the med painintheass. Yes, my loving, sweet husband of 9 years today, said that about me, his fabulously beautiful wife. So, thanks for all the sweet words and thought that you sent my way. They helped me more than you know! You all ROCK!

A little tyrade

First, don't look at my spelling or punctuation or paragraphs or lack thereof. I just want to write.

So, Isn't a blog someplace where one can vent, express their true feelings and no one will judge them. Random strangers and friends will offer strength and support because they too, know what it's like to feel that way. That is what a blog is for right? If you don't think so, you will probably not want to read this post. I wont have any pics, I might say something funny, but I can't guarantee that.

Along with the post.
Ok-so I really don't know where to start. How about with some adjectives. Overwhelmed, stressed, sad, distressed, depressed, painful, questioning. Ok, some of you know that i have been diagnosed with Chronic Pelvic Pain. i have been dealing with this pain for 3 years. i was just diagnosed about 6 weeks ago. I have had 6 laproscopic surgeries, and a total hysterectomy all of this before the age of 29. No one can fiegure out what is wrong with me, so this is the diagnosis that i now have. i went to my family doc about a month ago and he gave me great hope. He put me on some meds that were really helping me. i woke up and some days were bad days, but most days were good days. i was feeling so happy. i was starting to feel normal. Those of you who have never felt this way, you are so lucky, and i hope that you never do. For those of you who do know how i feel, i will say a prayer for all of you.

Well, the past 5 days or so, things have really done down hill. i woke up one day with swollen feet that progressed to swollen everything. My pain that seemed to be getting under control, all of a sudden was not anymore and i now look in the mirror and hate what i see. My face and neck are so swollen , it looks like i have gained 20 pounds in the last 6 days. My pain is back, just as bad as ever before and now they tell me that i have thyroid problem.

I am just overwhelmed with my life right now. i know that thing s could be far worse than they are. i keep telling myself that, but I am pretty overwhelmed with everything right now. I just want to wake up tomorrow and feel better. i want to sleep and not wake up at 3 because of the pain. I just want to me again. I am sorry that i am going on like this, but i truly feel non judged here. No one tries to fix it, no one tells me that tomorrow will be better and no one tells me that they understand. i have yet to meet someone who totally understands. so, if you are out there, please tell me that i am not alone. I am sorry that i am being such a baby, i am crying as i write this post. I just want to be normal, i want to be a great mom again instead of a mom who is sick. I want to be a wife who can go away for her aniversary which is tomorrow and i can't go. I just want to be me. I know that this is happening for a reason, i know that this is just a trial, i just wish that it was over. Tomorrow will be better than today, my world wont seem so overwhelming, but right now, i feel like I am being crushed with the reality of everything. Well, if any of you are still reading, I appreciate you. Just knowing that i am a part of this whole blogging community sometimes gives me great comfort. thanks so much. I appreciate anyone who reads my blog and leaves a comment, they really do make my day. Ok-enough with the rambling. I said that i would not be wordy-i lied, I'll try better next time.