One last thing....

I went to the Nerologist today. It was not what I was expecting. \
Unfortunately.
I wish that this was over.
More than words can express.
But when I stop to think about my life and all the trials that I am going through-I think
1- It could be worse
2- I could have no support
3. the Lord must have a lot of faith in me to send me this trial (s)

The dr. told me that my headache was a tension headache and I needed to exercise and it would go away.
Oh people-it was all I could do to not kick him in the teeth.
I sat there and asked him if he honestly thought that I was not/or had not tried everything that I could do to control this?
Everytime I asked this wonderful DR-he would look at me and not answer.
He would not look me in the eye, but he would my husband!!!
GRRRRR!
It was such a frustrating day!
I thought that I was going to get an answer-just got nothing instead.

So-I sat and felt sorry for myslef while I drank and eggnog shake. (so good BTW)
then I thought, what good am I doing?
Satan is winning, because I am letting him.
So-I read my comments from "strangers" who don't know me from adam-and felt the love through their words.
I decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and try to find good things from this.
S0-here are my "GOOD THINGS"

I am blessed beyond measure
I am stronger than I know
I have faith in Heavenly Father that he will never leave me alone.
I have a husband who is better than gold-even better than the perfect pair of jeans! :)
I have a family who supports me-no matter what I throw at them.
I have 3 beautiful people who love me no matter what.
I have the joy that they bring when they yell MOMMY when I walk in the door.
I have the love of my friends, the concern of strangers, the prayers of others to get me through the days. Sometimes it's hours and sometimes it's minutes-and thats ok.
I am blessed.
I am loved.
I am special.
I can do this.
He sent me this trial because I can do this.

My new favorite quote:
That which brings you closer to God is a blessing.

This trial is a blessing.

No picture post.

I know that sometimes it is not really very fun to look at posts without pics. I just wanted to share some not so fun info.

First-some good news.
We got my FIL home-well at least to UTAH!! Yea!! He is not better and he is still in the ICU-but he is in one of the best hospitals in the state. They are already talking about weaning him of the vent. Small changes but good. We are so thrilled that he is here. It is truly a miracle that he was able to be transferred. The good news is going to be keep coming. I just know it.

Now-my new reality. I know that it could be worse. Just wish it wasnt' so.
I had another spinal tap done yesterday.
Yes-I still have my headaches. They only went away for about 48 hours. CRAPPY!
Found a new neuro-he ordered another test. This one was nothing like the first. My back doesn't hurt at all!!!!
My head on the other hand, is much worse.
We went to the ER this morning because the headache was different and we were afraid that it was a spinal headache.
No-it wasn't. They just all decided on what on I have for sure and what the next step is.
I have a Pseudo Neuro Cerebrai Tumor.
Basically-this works like a tumor-pressure on my brain and optic nerve, there just insn't a tumor.
They said that this was a possibilty before, but the first Neuro told me it wasn't.
Anyway-after many meds to try and treat this-No luck.
I go tomorrow to see my Neuro so we can decoide when to do the shunt.
Yes-I have to have brain surgery-sort of.
They tell me that they do shunts all the time.
It's a very safe procedure-it's not a big deal.
Well-it's a big deal to me!
I am freaking out.
they will have to drill a hole in my head.
That would freak anyone out-right?
So-that is what is happening here.
Really wish that you all were a littl more closer-Icould use some hugs and mm&m's.
Not to mention a couple of elves who love to wrap!
Haven't even started on that task yet!

Thanks for letting me vent. (if any of you are still reading) I know that it could be worse and there are many others who are dealing with a lot worse. I am just so grateful that I have great insurance, good Dr's who can help and a husband and family who support me in whatever crap I get them in to. Plus-they say that they love me no matter what!
(We'll see )
Have a great day!

Look what came in out mailbox!!!

Santa sent us letters!! Not just any one liner letters-special just for them letters!
The postmark was even from the NORTH POLE!
My girls were more than thrilled.

6 was thrilled!

8 was overjoyed as well!.(sorr the pic was a little blurry)

Look at 4-do you think that she was excited?

Cool-A north pole postmark! Authentic-REAL BABY!

This was picture was taken before they opened the letters. Can you tell how excited they are! Look-they are gritting their teeth-thinking

HURRY UP MOM-TAKE THE STUPID PICTURE!!

I am working on another client right now. We get to do two girls bedrooms! We shopped today and hit the jack pot!! It was a blast! It is always so much fun to decorate girls rooms!!

So-I am crafting a bit to make their rooms extra special.

These are some bulletin boards that I did tonight.

The girls are so excited-I had to give them a little somethin-somethin!!!

Happy December 5th! Is anyone else freaking out that Christmas is 20 days away?
Or is it just me? Maybe is't because I am not ready.
Please tell me I am not the only one!
I wanted to share a couple more pics of decor at the Hoyt's house.
This is my room divider that I made out of bi-fold closet doors from the thrift store!
They were so simple and a great peice for any room.
Pluse-you can decorate it up with a kinds of sparkly goodness!!! These are trees-2,3 and 4.
Yes, those are snowman plates that you are seeing.
When you have a fake tree-you can whatever on them.
Thats is why there is only pine scented scentsies and no pine scented trees at my house!
I couldn't decorate a real tree with all the crap that I use on a fake!


See these little carboard words.
This is mom genius that you are looking at right now.
No-I am not trying to be stuck up.
If I was going to do that-I wouldn't being sharing this fantastic idea.
It will make your life easier and your children smarter!

The girls were BORED last night. I didn't want them on TV or the Computer. So-I made something up. The little white words were a punchout in a workbook that 6 had.
The directions said to makeup sentences with the words.
Well, there were not enough words for both of them to play.
So-I grabbed the scissors and the empty cereal box that was on the counter-and got to cutting.
We made more of the regular words-and, the as, a, I etc..
Then we added some Christmas words. Sleigh, santa, elf, naughty.
Then we said go and the girls went to town.
They had contests who could make the longest sentance, who could use the most christmas words, who could make the shortest sentance the fastest.
They played happily for over 20 mins.
NO FIGHTING!
I had to share.
We are going to make this little game for friends for christmas.
I will make them cuter, and you know, more of the same shape.
8 wants me to use Cursive words. Because they can read them now.

So-I figure with a lipgloss that cost me 69 cents from Avon-and this little gem.
Friends gifts can get the old heave ho off the list.

What are you waiting for-go and make these.
Your kids will love you.
It will take you 3 minutes.
You could even add magnets and stick them on the fridge.
The possibilies are endless.
We are going to make the friend sets this weekend.
Me, the girls and my trusty CRICUT!
Let me know what you think, and if you are going to add the
"20 minutes of pure bliss" game to your house this holiday season!
have a Fantastic Weekend!!!


Sorry there are so many grammatical errors in this post.
I am just not in the mood to make sense!
Hope that you are understand and still love me!!