I have had a really rough past couple of days.
I am using my blog as a place to write and hopefully by the words I write they can be used as a coping mechanism.
I looked up the definition of MENTAL BREAKDOWN and this is what is said;
Mental breakdown (also known as nervous breakdown or snapping) is a non-medical term used to describe a sudden, acute attack of mental illness such as depression or anxiety.
All of this lovelyness was all triggered by a panic attack that was triggered by a really bad, painful day.
I don't know if any of you have ever had a panic attack, but oh my heck, I have never been so scared in my life. If my hubby wouldn't have been here, I am pretty sure that I would have passed out.
My pain has been off the charts lately! Holy Crap I don't know what the heck is wrong with me!
All I have done is cry, hyperventilate and pray!
I am really hoping that all of this happening to teach me something, to show me something, to allow to me see something in a different way.
Whatever the reason may be, I am hoping and praying that is over soon!
If you are all in the dark about my whole pain thing-go here and you will know what the sam heck I am talking about.
I am sure some of you are thinking-why are you blogging?
I am doing this for some normalcy.
My life has been so unnormal for the past 2 days, I need something to keep me from thinking that I am not losing my mind!
I am sure that there are people out there who deal with this all the time.
Oh, how my heart aches for you.
I am freaking out with all that is happening to me, and I can only imagine if it happened all the time!
I know that this is a really downer of a post-I don't usually do this-but I needed somewhere to go where no one would judge me, question me, call me a freak, but accept me and maybe, just maybe help me.
I love my blog, better yet, I love my friends that I have gained because of it. You are all so great and reassuring. I am blessed because of you. I know that there are many of you, that I have never seen and probably will never meet face to face, but I like to think that one day, I will meet you-even if it's in Heaven. Then I can tell you thanks and give you a hug!
Sorry to be so sappy-you know-just one of those days. I appreciate you all listening, or in this case, reading. You all get gold, no pink stars in my book!
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Posted by Tausha at 8:20 PM